I'm an addict!

So... today I was having a really crappy day. Nothing was wrong, I was just in a pissy mood. I didn't know why, I didn't care why, I just wanted to break something...

The second I sat down at my computer tonight and turned on my music it all went away. All the anger, all the tension, everything.

Therefore, I've concluded that I am a music addict.

I think I should invest in an i-pod or something... that way I don't feel the need to kill people when I'm away from my computer too long. O.o

Late Night at the LAN Party

Tonight I'm at my friend Matt's house. We (as I already said in the title) are having a LAN PARTY! Woohoo!

So far we've played some Halflife (the first one) and some Warcraft 3. Right now the other people are taking a break, so I'm taking this opportunity to write to you guys.

I really wanted to thank all the people that welcomed me into the blogging community (since I just saw I had comments.) It means a lot to me.

I know this one's kinda short, but I'm still getting warmed up, AND it's late, and I'm being lazy.

It's time to go get some more headshots, so peace.

-Ryan

Happiness.

I know this sounds a little lecture-y, so sorry, but I don't have anything else to write about, and I think it's important...

I think there are 3 kinds of happiness.

First off there is the happiness that is a self satisfied, proud feeling of "I did good, I'm happy." This is the purest happiness. It can't be taught, it can't be sold, it can only be found for each person on their own. This is the kind of happiness we should strive for, because it's an honest happiness.

The second kind of happiness is that of putting others down in order to build yourself up to a mockery of the first type. When you make somebody else feel bad so that you feel better, it's wrong. Wrong because if everybody did it, everybody would have terrible swings from nearly suicidal to euphoric. Just don't do it!

The last kind of happiness is the worst. This is the happiness from chemicals. The people who do this do it because they are lazy. They are cheating their way through life. They can't go out and find happiness, so they go get high, or drunk, or whatever, and pretend that they can be happy too. This is giving up, and I personally would rather die than lie to myself about being happy.

Just food for thought. ^^

I'll have something new tomorrow... maybe more sagely wisdom... who knows? xD

-Ryan

First Post

Woohoo!

I have a blog, and I'm very scared and excited. I'm usually a pretty reserved person, but here in my blog, I'm going to say what I feel. I am, for the first time in my life, going to say "Fuck it. I don't care what you think. This is what I think." and be honest with you guys, and with myself.

I'm gonna start out with me.

My name is Ryan. I have 4 sisters and no brothers.
I haven't lived at home for about a year now.
I love music more than anything. Period.

On that note, I want to be a composer.

Today, I slept in until about 4:30 pm, got up, played WoW (Boomimoom on Anub'arak) until my computer crashed. (because I hit the power cord with my foot >_<) After rebooting (and a few choice swear words) I started listening to my music.

(I'm addicted to the song "Look Out Sunshine" right now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ZVA2zMX1xo)

and IMing a little with a couple of friends. One of which (Lee) is the reason I'm doing this, and is the amazing girl who made this layout for me.

(Check out her site if you want one. http://customlayoutsbylee.blogspot.com )

Now I'm going to sit back, relax, and eat some popcorn. (with delicious white chedder seasoning)

-Ryan